Sheep or nah

There's nothing wrong with being a sheep/yes person as long as you enjoy or are okay with being one.

What I mean by this is someone who follows instructions to the T. Following a job's protocol is not what I am referring to as being a sheep.

More like, being spoken to a certain way, being told what to do, not being able to speak up much or defend yourself. Because the person speaking to you feels you have no rights to speak up nor have ideas of your own. They considered your ideas and feelings to be pointless or just not good enough. So, you choose to stay quiet and obey, follow their orders.

then you have the ones where a problem occurred, you decide to bring it up to them and as you share your point of view, they cut you off to say your feelings or facts are inappropriate or pointless, most of the time "you are being defensive". So, you allow them to intimidate/manipulate you to the point you start believing they are right.

Not speaking up for yourself is ok, as long as you are ok with NOT speaking up. As long as you are NOT allowing anyone to abuse you in any way or forcing you to stay shut it is fine stay shut. Whatever makes you happy, do that. BUT! If you feel you should speak up and make sure your point gets across, DEFINITELY SPEAK UP! Defend yourself.

Today I understood a different level of being a yes person/sheep.

This level pays off more than speaking up with certain humans. It's called favoritism. Some sheep's follow such great orders that they gain favoritism from others.

Being able to have self-control, enough growth and ways of responding during a moment you are experiencing favoritism against you is the number one key to not lose your shit and NOT do something you'll regret later on.

I personally have a hard time being a yes person.

The knowledge of respect I know, doesn't allow me to be a sheep 100 percent.

Plus, the way my self-worth setup. I understand I will continue to just switch jobs or let people go rather than become a kiss ass to someone who's clearly using favoritism to solve a problem.

Unable to allow someone else to put blame on me for something I did not do.

Unable to stay shut when I have a fact/opinion for their misconception, misbehavior or mistreatment.

Those like me who speak up often get told we don't know how to communicate; you are too defensive they say. BUT isn't it weird how we are actually over communicating? Expressing ourselves? and still, get negative feedback and expected to just STFU and obey.

Funnier is that, with the same breath they say, be you, speak up, we want you to be comfortable. Then the moment you do, you're being defensive or disrespectful?

Point is when surrounded by these people or scenarios try your best to just be that yes person. no matter how hard it is for you, try! As long as you want to be there of course.

For your sake, for what you want. Do not let others affect you or your plans.

Remember, most of the time someone speaks up for themselves they get affected in negative ways just because they were unable to hide their rightful emotions. isn't that fucked up? So, be ready. stand your ground in a firm nonaggressive way.

If you have gone through this before just know it won't be the last time you meet someone who dislikes your way of doing things. Learning to not care and to let go in the sense of not letting their ways control your emotions, feelings nor actions, is the best choice you can make for your peace of mind and for your goals.

Weak people feel the need to control others & not being able to control you will trigger weak people. which allows them to give themselves a false reason to do or use things against you.

Not everyone was born with the need to be controlled or being told what to do.

Depending on the situation being a sheep pays off, you get as much as possible out of some bosses and people who need you (beware) TILL they no longer need you. So, if you have it in you, go for it, be a sheep, lol.

Advice:

People who are right for you, allow you to be YOU.

Whether is at home, work, school. Anyone you interact with on a daily basis, do their best to understand your ways. They flow on working with you, not against you.

I wrote this due to a revelation I had after an altercation I experienced with someone who shocked me at the way they used favoritism. I asked the Divine, why is it so hard for me to STFU. Why can't I just react like a sheep when being treated wrong?

They said, you are simply just not a sheep. You are part of the beings who serve as a mirror, you are meant to speak up to bring clarity to those who need to self-reflect.

So, if you are having a hard time allowing others to walk all over you, this is why. You are a NOT a part of the sheep crew.

XOXOXO

I send you much love and positive energy.